So this is what I mean to make everything a positive. Had an earlier than usual morning, but now I am here writing about it for you guys. So this was actually a dream of an individual in an office setting who had a gun.(oh just wait, it gets better) As I am in my dream I am also thinking about things I had failed to realize in life that I wanted to do, but like so many of us had either pushed off out of laziness, lack of self-esteem, or just wasn’t willing to commit due to other priorities. The person with the gun does not know I am around. Is not aware of anyone following them around the halls. I know they have a gun because of the thing slung inside the waistband behind them. I am just walking through the hallway behind trying to get close enough in order to possibly subdue, throw down on the ground yell some movie line and say “all in a days work”,(ya like I am that cool) It occurs to me That I am actually terrified even though I am not necessarily part of the situation. What I am really afraid of is not making a move when maybe i could of done something and saved everyone else from having to deal with this, those way more afraid than me, less likely to be able to think in the current moment and just become a victim. I inch closer and closer, I have but one feeling and then suddenly someone jumps out of the broom closet and startles me. Person says to me, “hey that guy has a gun, come in here with me.” Now to be clear I am not advocating anyone take this dream I had and base a decision on this if caught in this in a real life situation, this is just the dream and how it played out. So I am thinking that I will tackle first and get the gun, and just fight like hell to not get shot. You know, simple enough, to the point. Then again with my luck I have the gun, shoot myself in the foot and then lose the fight. It is just a bad day from then on. Ugh how embarrassing would that be to tell friends and family…nope just kill me, not dealing with that. AFTER ALL OF THAT, ladies and gents you must stop doing this to yourself, or even if you do realize you are doing it and just make a decision. Is this something you want? Is it something you have wanted to do for a long time? Just know all this is going to happen, you’re going to feel embarrassed, you may even get shot in the foot, but all of these things will not matter if you cower away and never even begin to make decisions that will lead you closer to your goals, ambitions, life’s pursuits in order to be truly happy. I am moving closer and closer to this guy with a gun, I want to be the difference, I want to take the chance, but I must realize that all these negative thoughts are me telling myself that I can’t do something. Which means I have nobody to blame but myself when making decisions about how my life will go. Death is inevitable so you might as well make some decisions in life, life is short, or is it just the right amount of time. I don’t get in the closet with the guy, I am not trying to hide. I want this fucker on the ground and I am taking his ass down hard. I sprint towards him, wrap my arms around him and then……I wake up…..I shit you not I wake up. The dream having nothing to do with the threat, having everything to do with me just making a decision. Don’t let anyone else talk you down, and certainly don’t talk yourself down. Thanks for reading.
