I told myself i was going to go to bed now but as you are reading I am still up and typing away for my mind has no bounds when it comes to sleep deprivation. For me sleep has always been a, “eh I will get to it when I get to it.” Kind of like chores, or having to do homework. My principal and I were very well acquainted, my straight c report card was not going to mail itself. For this I will say high school for me was not the standard educational practices. They definitely had those to some degree. I just chose to look at school as more of a social experiment to maneuver while in close quarters with other mouth breathers, and people who think they had it all figured out by age 17. Was not in the popular crowd, did not drink, did not smoke, and yet I found myself in very close proximity of these people all the time. Understand if you have teenagers, they are into some weird shit. It’s OK unless they start torturing animals, but that’s for you to figure out just how weird it is. When any group of teenagers get together, you have hormones raging, fireworks, light shows, making pizzas in an oven for 50 people in the guest house. Drunk and passed out on the couch, sail boat cover, in a sea of cheerleaders, or my personal favorite was 5 sitting in a circle with heads rolled back to high to get up. Yes prom night was fun. When do we cut off lost causes? What age is that not appropriate? I mean we as a society are OK with our 20’s nearly comatose from alcohol. Then you can’t forget about dirty 30’s. I am there now and it is pretty fun considering I am still trying to build everything I have invested in. This also coming from a guy who used to clean Department buildings. Vacuum, scrub floors, toilets. Don’t be someone who justifies your existence by what you do for a living, because that is what others are already doing for you. Just keep your head up and keep moving forward. What makes sense to you now will make sense to those when they are ready to see it. Even these 5 high in a circle could be a doctor or lawyer some day, I choose to not put people in that bubble. They have aspirations and dreams all their own and even older now I am sure I will have my day I just need to let go and will find myself looking for my own sail boat cover to lay in after a night of boozing. For now your reality is only a thin fabric of who you are and at any moment you are more than capable of starting a new avenue that may just be a better fit for your lifestyle. Always be thinking of improvement, it is not greedy to think how your life can be better, the more you do for yourself, the more you can do for others. Bangov Actual, out.
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