Not all your ideas will come when they are supposed to. Just heading out the door and was like “damn it.” Had something else on my mind I just have to get down. Not always how it goes. While working warehouse jobs I would have to sneak away from the boss man in order to get ideas down on paper. Text them to myself, or write them out in the bathroom. The so called “natural flow” of your day more than likely will change the more you chase what inevitably will be what you’re trying to accomplish. Didn’t even know why I would write anything down, I just did. Just became a part of who I was. Never shared it with anyone, never thought anyone would care. Just kept writing and once I had all my writings in front of me I realized it was a manuscript for myself. I really started to write for myself, trying to develop my BanGov. Something was just really wanting to burst out of me and this is what it became. Still have more vision, enough for a lifetime that I have written down. At this point it is just laying dormant until like I have explained before, the fear comes into focus and I am ready to really make it a reality. It is building and building and I don’t know if it will ever stop. The inconvenience of day to day as it seemed was just a place holder for my life in the current moment. I have had a few jobs. Military, Warehousing, mailing, carpentry, home renovations, remodeling, property management, delivery driver, retail, sales, landscaping, dump hauling, painting, and last but not least a paper route. After all these things you realize these are just things that were a place hold for what was to become my true passions. Hell I even applied to be an apprentice of a hot shot Male Escort…ya you read that right. Didn’t get the job, and I asked why but they never responded. I do not care what work you choose to do, of course I encourage you do it through legal means, but never underestimate the power of a 9-5. Stop thinking about the pay you receive and think of it as time being given in order to take charge of your own life and get paid for what you’re worth while doing what you love. If you like your job then ask for a raise or go somewhere else. know your worth and make sure you have the work ethic to back it up.These are where dreams are made of for what kind of lifestyle you want. Who watch what they are apart of and think they do the same job as the boss. You just have to believe that you’re capable and possibilities are endless. BanGov Actual, out!

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So this is what I mean to make everything a positive. Had an earlier than usual morning, but now I am here writing about it for you guys. So this was actually a dream of an individual in an office setting who had a gun.(oh just wait, it gets better) As I am in my dream I am also thinking about things I had failed to realize in life that I wanted to do, but like so many of us had either pushed off out of laziness, lack of self-esteem, or just wasn’t willing to commit due to other priorities. The person with the gun does not know I am around. Is not aware of anyone following them around the halls. I know they have a gun because of the thing slung inside the waistband behind them. I am just walking through the hallway behind trying to get close enough in order to possibly subdue, throw down on the ground yell some movie line and say “all in a days work”,(ya like I am that cool) It occurs to me That I am actually terrified even though I am not necessarily part of the situation. What I am really afraid of is not making a move when maybe i could of done something and saved everyone else from having to deal with this, those way more afraid than me, less likely to be able to think in the current moment and just become a victim. I inch closer and closer, I have but one feeling and then suddenly someone jumps out of the broom closet and startles me. Person says to me, “hey that guy has a gun, come in here with me.” Now to be clear I am not advocating anyone take this dream I had and base a decision on this if caught in this in a real life situation, this is just the dream and how it played out. So I am thinking that I will tackle first and get the gun, and just fight like hell to not get shot. You know, simple enough, to the point. Then again with my luck I have the gun, shoot myself in the foot and then lose the fight. It is just a bad day from then on. Ugh how embarrassing would that be to tell friends and family…nope just kill me, not dealing with that. AFTER ALL OF THAT, ladies and gents you must stop doing this to yourself, or even if you do realize you are doing it and just make a decision. Is this something you want? Is it something you have wanted to do for a long time? Just know all this is going to happen, you’re going to feel embarrassed, you may even get shot in the foot, but all of these things will not matter if you cower away and never even begin to make decisions that will lead you closer to your goals, ambitions, life’s pursuits in order to be truly happy. I am moving closer and closer to this guy with a gun, I want to be the difference, I want to take the chance, but I must realize that all these negative thoughts are me telling myself that I can’t do something. Which means I have nobody to blame but myself when making decisions about how my life will go. Death is inevitable so you might as well make some decisions in life, life is short, or is it just the right amount of time. I don’t get in the closet with the guy, I am not trying to hide. I want this fucker on the ground and I am taking his ass down hard. I sprint towards him, wrap my arms around him and then……I wake up…..I shit you not I wake up. The dream having nothing to do with the threat, having everything to do with me just making a decision. Don’t let anyone else talk you down, and certainly don’t talk yourself down. Thanks for reading.

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Comes a time when your comfort zone will have to be stepped out of. Even if it was not the intended plan. Having self confidence is extremely important in this fact that when you get the thought of “maybe this is not for me, maybe I am not good enough, maybe I should stay at my job where I am safe?” Understand the easiest time to quit in a marathon is within the first five minutes. That is when all that quit talk starts in your mind. Starts to build until about the first sweat. Then after that you’re in fuck it mode, LET’S GO!!! Now you’re in it, now you’ve pushed back against all that is saying no in you and say yes. Say yes because every part of you that wants to quit and go back to your safe space will say no. You’re the only one you should be concerned about because how you treat yourself reflects on how you treat others. Teach others by teaching yourself, not to quit, to say yes I am doing this. Don’t always worry about the coming in first part. Just do things in order to get the experience. Failing is such a trigger word for people so I’m going to bring it back. Fail in a way that puts you closer to your goals. Fail in a way that you know this is or is not the path you intend to make your life’s pursuit. When you find it, and you know it is what you were meant to do then failing becomes inevitable while you change the game itself. Then you have manifested a world all your own. Very important to fail because most are not even trying. Just spectators in life, just waiting for life to come to them. That is not a BanGov mentality. Wake up and go through the motions, and stop thinking your body is going to break. All I can say is I want to work til I die. Whatever that means, death is the only way out of life, so while I am here, I will be inevitable.

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Now Ladies I will get to you in a min, but Gentleman, just as I am driving through the city I see waiting across the stop light, a fucking bombshell of a woman. I mean 5’9″ Forever 21 faux suede knee boots, ladies only $31.49 at the time of this post, check them out now!. Woven poncho with nicely done hair, fresh set of nails, and my goodness a caramel latte tan face. Needless to say this woman looked, MUH DAYUMM! Good. That being said it gets a man thinking that is his perception of her that he doesn’t approach? Maybe she looks too good that it fends off fuck boys with loud cars with no negotiable social skills in order to approach a woman of this caliber?? I have heard men say they don’t want a woman that they think is too expensive. Which OK Gents I don’t want a woman spending all my money either….BUT, did any of those men ever think to ask if a woman has money of her own? I BET YOU NOT!!! Now I am not saying gold digging whores is not a thing. So are men looking for sugar mommas. Hell I would take one in a heart beat, Info@ban-gov.com, hahahaha. Ok but ladies I want to know what happens when you see a man of a certain caliber. Well dressed, strong jawline, well groomed and you know that motha, fucka, packin, and could do some damage in the sheets. Ladies is too much for you really too much? You see a Rolex on his hand are you like oh shit, and does it scare you or does it entice you to move forward? Think of what you’re worth in this world. Are you willing to rise to the occasion of asking a man or woman who may be of a certain caliber above where you are? Why not, maybe you would learn something from the way they think, or who they are, maybe they don’t have money, maybe it’s costume jewelry, maybe she wearing extensions. Be very careful with how you perceive the individual, what does that say about someone you may even be with right now? Did you fall into a trap of who they were when you first met them? Have you seen a deeper side to them that may even bring you closer?…Dig deeper folks, keep digging because that is the only way you get all you can out of life/love and you’re own pursuits ESPECIALLY the one you intend to spend the rest of your life with. BanGov Actual, out!

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If perception is reality, then create your own perception. I was asked why I like to work. Purpose is a reason to get up in the morning. It’s why people get up at 5. It is why I will eat once a day. Some days I won’t eat at all because some days I don’t even think I am hungry. I am just hungry for purpose in my life. I’m in pursuit of a purpose and to want it so bad that any obstacles in my way are inevitable on the road to my success. This may sound preachy but fuck it, you’re in my world now BITCH!!. Seriously though take a min, or take a day, or 2 even to look at your life now and realize if it is what you want, and does it justify how hard you have been working. If not, maybe it is time to start looking at your life differently. Maybe even start looking at your life at what it could be if you applied the same hard effort to that thing you’ve been putting off for so many years. I know it’s there. You’re just reading this so don’t think you’re going to lie to me. You’re in your room, so again look around, and think is this what you want? If not then know you’re worth something more. You just have to believe it. I will prove it to you. Ever not bought something because you thought it was too “expensive.” Is that the case or are you just not willing to work hard enough. You wouldn’t buy that dress, purse, watch, car, truck, accessory or whatever the fuck because it was maybe, $50 more expensive? 100, 200, dollars more? Well why wouldn’t you just wait another paycheck and get what you want instead of just wanting something now. You’re lazy!!! If you did spend that extra $200. Did that mean you would starve for a month, or did it just scare you to buy it without even weighing the consequences. See what I mean, that’s the power of fear as it is perceived in the mind. Start telling yourself I can afford this and you will bend the reality of what is affordable in ways you never thought possible. You either wait another paycheck for the most expensive thing. Or buy now and spend the next month working an extra shift, or doing a side hustle knowing it would take care of it. Only question to ask when knowing what you want in life is, “How hard are you willing to work?” When you figure that out, you’ll manifest your potential. Bangov Actual, out.